Depression is low energy and the ‘not wanting’. It is the ‘not wanting’ to take your kid to the Christmas Parade, the ‘not wanting’ to go to the dog park, … Continue reading 🙍♀️The "Not Wanting" Mind 🙍♀️
Dear Sweet Lord.. I am…Passionate and Assertive; Sensitive, Strong & Courageous;Bold & Shy; Honest, Open & Willing;Certain & Uncertain.Motivated & Energetic.Forever Young & as Old as Methuselah;Low Energy & Sad;Insecure & Confident. … Continue reading Describe Who I Am? Really?
I can see him in the distance. I towards him. Him towards me. My heart begins to beat faster. My step gets a little lighter…. I cannot hold in the … Continue reading 🧥The Wind-River🧥
This morning I ate two tubs of Ben & Jerry’s. Chocolate Fudge Brownie & Cherry Garcia. The store closed at 3 am, yet, it is 6:30 am and I am … Continue reading Ben and Jerry’s
I stand. I stand before you uneasy and afraid. I stand trembling. My throat is dry ; my hands sweat. My voice soon to quiver. I stand. I stand before … Continue reading I Stand.
I am the problem I have adjudged. I provoke the turmoil and pain. Tears. Uneasiness. Low self esteem. No self-worth. I recognize childhood when my Dad was the problem. I … Continue reading I am the Problem
I sit in my car clutching the car steering wheel in my driveway and cry convulsively. I want to drive and not come back. Mentally I shame and discredit myself … Continue reading Escape
I repetitively struggle with my emotions. I felt different as a child, a teen, and I feel peculiar as an adult. My conflict and emotional pain is real. Unfortunately, mental … Continue reading Emotions Anonymous
The store opens in 45 minutes and I am having one of ‘those’ days. A day where to type in this blog requires motivation and my get-up-and-go – is gone. … Continue reading The Onset
Today I am unfeeling. I do not hate this unemotional state. In a freaky way it is a vacation from my usual hamster wheel of an existence. I am existing … Continue reading My Dark Passenger