I stand. I stand before you uneasy and afraid. I stand trembling. My throat is dry ; my hands sweat. My voice soon to quiver. I stand. I stand before you with no positive self-image. No love for me. I judge what is ‘wrong’ and not what is ‘right’. It blankets me. I stand. I… Read More
Today I am unfeeling. I do not hate this unemotional state. In a freaky way it is a vacation from my usual hamster wheel of an existence. I am existing in a dark limbo state, a pause, an escape. The numb before the cloud. I feel comfortable and uncomfortable. A familiar place of uncertainty. My body… Read More
Dear Sweet Lord.. I am…Passionate and Assertive; Sensitive, Strong & Courageous;Bold & Shy; Honest, Open & Willing;Certain & Uncertain.Motivated & Energetic.Forever Young & as Old as Methuselah;Low Energy & Sad;Insecure & Confident. I am…. Simply me. Like me or Leave me.Label me & Judge me. I do know I am happy;and the rest is BULLSHIT.
Reflection for Today Today is my spouse’s birthday. The best gift I can give him is to let him be himself – not try to change him. He has the same rights as I do and is entitled to make his own decisions, whether I think they are correct or not. Criticism is a major… Read More
I can see him in the distance. I towards him. Him towards me. My heart begins to beat faster. My step gets a little lighter…. I cannot hold in the massive SMILE that infects my face. I walk faster. My face hurts. I can see him smiling … I can see him speeding in pace.… Read More
Hello, I am powerless over my emotions today. I find myself giddy as I think about my financial future. I never really worried about finances for fourteen years as my employment position was full-time, reliable, was advancing, and was satisfying. My work environment and ‘the work’ changed resulting in my poor mental and emotional health.… Read More
It is 3:29 am and I will soon be crawling into bed. My online delivery store closed at 3 am, therefore my ‘working’ scheduled hours are late. However as a small business owner, my work is never really done. It is not like you can turn the thoughts off, the worries off, and the financial… Read More